Special Needs Parents and PTSD: This Is What Happens
I drove up the freeway, listening to a podcast and not really paying much attention to my surroundings.
All of a sudden, I started to panic.
Nothing changed. I was just suddenly gripped by an almost crippling anxiety. I felt like my chest was constricting. I could barely breathe.
I pulled over and started to cry, trying to figure out what in the world was wrong. As I began to catch my breath, I realized where I was – about 50 feet away from the freeway exit for the hospital.
My son had been there for ten days, about a year prior.
A piece of my heart, and apparently also my mind, has been there ever since.
It was, by far, the most traumatic experience of my life.
My son’s hospitalization at only ten years old was the worst thing that ever happened to either one of us. For almost three years now, we have been working through the aftermath. Mostly with him, although that day on the freeway made me realize that I needed help too.
PTSD requires a medical diagnosis. Please hear me when I say, I am not a doctor, nor am I writing this flippantly. But I think parents of medically and behaviorally complicated children need to know more about the reality of PTSD.
Here are the symptoms of PTSD according to the Mayo Clinic:
Special Needs Parents and PTSD: It’s Real
The Wall Street Journal recently published an article about parents and PTSD. The report included the following statistics related to PTSD and parents of children with chronic illness and of premies in the neonatal intensive care unit at Stanford.
In a paper published in 2009 in the journal Health Psychology, a group of researchers analyzed 16 studies reporting on the prevalence of PTSD in parents of children with chronic illness. In the pooled data, 22.8% of parents had PTSD.
Richard Shaw, professor of psychiatry and pediatrics at Stanford University School of Medicine, said he and his colleagues study PTSD in parents whose children were born prematurely and are in the neonatal intensive care unit at Lucile Packard Children’s Hospital in Palo Alto, Calif. Their research found that 30% of the parents went on to receive a diagnosis of PTSD, and another 30% to 40% experienced significant symptoms that impaired their functioning.
I am not even a little surprised by these statistics. In fact, I think if they studied parents of children with other chronic illnesses, including mental illness, the numbers would be astounding.
Special Needs Parents and PTSD: Why It Matters
Writing about this is not easy for me. Because I personally have experienced these symptoms and continue to experience them today (just writing about that freeway exit made my breathing labored and my heart beat faster) part of me wants to ignore this topic completely.
But I can’t. We can’t.
PTSD significantly affects the quality of life of anyone suffering from it. In a parent, this means it also affects our ability to advocate and make decisions about our children’s care. It changes the entire family.
Special Needs Parents and PTSD: This Is What Happens
I did see a therapist and I have been working through my own symptoms of PTSD.
Talking about it. Naming it. Accepting it. This is what has helped the trauma loosen its grip.
It’s why I am sharing this today.
PTSD is real. It happens, even to and perhaps, especially to parents of complex and chronically ill children.
It’s a big deal and it’s OK to see it as such. You are not weak or failing.
You are human. You are doing the best you can.
And it’s reasonable to need help.
Shawna Wingert is a former training and development professional turned education specialist, and has homeschooled her two children for the last ten years.Shawna has written four books about homeschooling unique learners and has been featured in homeschooling discussions on Today.com, The Mighty, Simple Homeschool, My Little Poppies and Raising Lifelong Leaners.
You can find her online here at DifferentByDesignLearning.com.
I had ptsd as a teen from childhood trauma. This was really helpful because I just realized reading this that my symptoms have somewhat always been there because of my sons special needs. Just never made the connection. Thank you.
EMDR and other techniques have really helped my PTSD. I have heard Neurofeedback could be beneficial too. If we don’t take care of ourselves who will take care of our children?
Just wanted to let you know how helpful this article is as I have never known what I was going through all this time until I read this. I thought I just had a weak heart and mind, and it was just me. Awareness is the first step in, and I am glad that there is a name for what I am going through.
It’s so real, but seeing it and naming it can be tough. Thank you so much for sharing your experience.
I am so grateful for this post and your willingness to be so open and honest. Just as you mentioned, I think that for so many of us, we aren’t even aware that we have PTSD. I didn’t have this realization until a few years ago and there has truly been such power in naming it. Thank you for discussing something all too often misunderstood and for being an example of self-care and healing while you raise your precious boys.
Naming it has so much power. Thank you so much for taking the time to share your experience, too, Sarah!
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