My email box is overflowing with New Years topics right now.
How To Crush Your Goals This Year!
Make This Your Best Year Yet!
Why You Need A (fill in the blank with budget, schedule, plan) This New Years.
I haven’t clicked on a single one.
It’s not that I am not interested in these topics.
Oh my goodness, you have no idea how much I love a plan and a goal. New Years and all the getting back on track that comes with it is 100% my jam. Give me a printable to help me determine my top priorities for the year and I will fill it out, highlight it and smile.
But this year, it just feels wrong for me. It feels wrong for my family.
After several years of scrambling to figure out how best to help my youngest son, all the while maintaining a sense of consistency and order for my oldest, stay married, pay the gigantic hospital bills, and somehow educate and feed everyone every day, last year brought us a gift that we did not expect.
A little bit of stability.
After years of chaos, struggle and an increasing dread that things were never going to improve, they did.
It began with a diagnosis for my youngest son that was like a final piece in the medically complicated, chronic illness puzzle.
While a life threatening, Common Variable Immunodeficiency diagnosis does not sound like something that would make your life easier, turns out, knowing really does.
Knowing means we have options for treatment.
Knowing means he is getting better.
Knowing means my sweet son can actually enjoy Christmas.
My Only Goal For The New Year
As we head into this new year, I am so grateful.
Mostly, I am grateful it is not last new years or the one before. We have made progress. It is better than it was. This time around is a gift.
And so, my only goal for the new year is this –
Appreciate the good.
I have no idea how long this period of stability and calm will last. I am hopeful that it will, but also comfortable with the fact that stability is not something typically used to describe complicated children.
For now, for however long it lasts, I want to appreciate it. I want to give thanks for it.
It sounds like a perfect way to begin our new year.